
My goal was to run a couple of miles and practice meditation. Well, you could compare my attempts to a small child holding the edge of a table feet wobbling. After every release and attempted step he would fall on his butt.
My first strategy was to concentrate on breathing. I would count exhale...1 inhale...2 exhale...3 all the way to ten and then start again from 1. Did not work. After three or four I would find myself thinking about the topic of the blog, what to feed the dogs with, why I cannot concentrate on this, how long will it take to master this... Then I remembered the Zen-method where you name the thought that disturbs you and let it go. Then I found myself thinking what would be the best name for each of these thoughts. Should I now name the difficulty of naming the thoughts? I also had problems letting the named thoughts go. They obviously did not know where to go and I could not help them.
After a while I noticed that counting affects my breathing rhythm and makes running difficult. I changed my strategy and started to concentrate on the moment when my right foot hits the ground. I started counting my steps. That caused another problem. My breathing which I had been counting started to follow my counting of steps. Needless to say that was not a good thing. I started to breath with the top of my lungs and got exhausted. How can this be so difficult? Maybe I am one of those persons who cannot chew gum and walk at the same time without getting into dangerous situations.
Despite all the problems towards the end of the run I started to get first glimpses of where this could take me. For a few subsequent steps I could free my mind from any thoughts. That was great! It reminded me of the best moments of my athlete years.Next time I can do better...maybe...if I do not come up excuses why not to run.
Buddha: A jug fills drop by drop.